The desert does strange things to the trajectory of your life.

Ten years ago, I was on my way to an artistic urban adventure in Los Angeles. My plan was to give my all to the Art World, from deep in dense East LA, and live by the traffic clock. And then.... screeeechhhhh, we ended up in rural San Bernardino County on a derelict dairy farm, with a couple of barns, broken down corrals, and endless skies, to start an artist residency.

Gradually, I’ve become a country person, and surrounded myself with hickish things on this desert land: cactus garden, outdoor oven, vintage RVs, and broken down antiques from a century past. Somehow I started thinking about adding bigger animals to the two cats, two dogs, tortoise and countless wild things that share our five acres. My girlfriend Daphne gave me a donkey calendar, and for my birthday this past year, Ted got me visits to friends who have donkeys. Shall I mention I turned 60, and so have permission to go stark raving mad?

Late in 2024, at a bbq at her horse rescue, a friend whispered in my ear that she'd like us to consider adopting her blind pony, Buttercup. I told her NO WAY. But I couldn’t stop thinking about it. A week later I told her, maybe, but we would need a coyote protector and companion. And an hour later she texted me a photo of a black donkey in Apple Valley, and did I want to see it? Yes.

I have never been interested in horses. Not even when I was a kid and every girl I knew collected plastic horse models (unicorns were not a thing in the 70s). I’ve only ridden horses a couple times, and it was not magical. But somehow in my late middle age, I am becoming a dusty cowgirl, who spends afternoons mucking out stalls and brushing manes. My “horse schooling” was an intense three weeks at Whispering Sands Horse Rescue before Buttercup the blind Shetland and Milton the BLM Donkey were dropped at our hastily plowed corral.

Yes, there are expenses. Yes, it’s time each day to feed and care for them. Yes, I’m outside more and more, and it’s winter and cold, and summer will be a bitch, even more than before. But it’s really magical. What can I say? I’m 12 again because I have finally have horses.

Summer came early this year, forcing us to cancel an artist and her son who were scheduled for a residency in early June. It would be too hot to work in the barn or outside, and even if she could manage, her son would be miserable.

We attended a wedding in San Diego, once again experiencing how perfect the weather is there, although a bit humid. And so green. But loud and crowded. Before leaving, we walked around my old neighborhood and thought, we could live here when we are "old."

Driving back to the desert with our electric car, we stupidly bypassed the first set of chargers, and then tried to find one in Temecula. On Sunday afternoon. Most were broken and people were waiting, hot and mad. We ended up at a low level charger in Menifee, under very little shade. Hell.

The High Desert was no cooler, even in late afternoon. At the turnoff to our street it was 107, but on the dirt road it rose to 108, and pulling in front of our house… 109.

That evening we drove east to Wonder Valley to say good bye to a friend who is giving up on desert living. She ran a horse ranch, and was doing a last photoshoot before breaking it down. And that is when the crappy day turned to magic. Perfect sunset. Golden horse, our friend majestic.

After the shoot she made hamburgers for us, and as the sunset faded, and dry lighting flashed in the east, a Space-X rocket shot out over the dark sky. We talked about how punishing it is to live in the desert, and that perhaps we can’t stay here forever either. And then we saw the satellites in a line, traveling the same path the rocket had an hour before. Little dots of light slowly spreading apart.

As we drove home the Strawberry moon, one day past its prime, rose over the mountains. Perfect.

Postscript. We are now into July and we hit 122 at 5pm yesterday, higher than we’ve ever experienced.

There have been many animals in my life, so I guess I’m one of those people. Major pets have been mostly cats, because I grew up in a cat loving family. Now I’m mostly a dog person.

But some animals have been in my life only briefly, and made a huge impact. When I was in my twenties, I lived in Andalucia one summer and found a black and white kitten on a country road that I named Batman. He climbed on my shoulders as I hung laundry on the apartment rooftop, swallows swooping overhead. I smuggled him back to the States, something you could get away before 911, but after a few weeks he ran away. Then there was a tiny Kangal puppy I found in the snow on a visit to Cappadocia in Turkey. I hid him under the covers to keep him warm in my cave hotel room, my friend telling me I couldn’t keep him, the dog would be huge. I left him with the hotel owner.

Now add to this list my lovely desert puppy, Hugo. Friends posted on FB they had found him on a highway in Adelanto, but couldn’t keep him. I wrote that I was interested and for several days did not hear back, although I checked often. I finally drove out to see him and that was it. Two days later I brought Ted and we took him home. A white and tan Heeler mix, a true desert dog.

We had one perfect, exhausting week with him, Toulie tolerating and the cats wary. But he was a joy in our menagerie. As he was already house trained, we worried he’d have a chip (he didn’t). Why would someone abandon him? He learned to sit to get his food bowl, and was biting toys instead of hands, mostly. So smart, he stole T’s owl and hide it under his chin in the big new dog bed Ted insisted he have. He played musical beds and tried to crawl in with T, getting a gutteral growl from the old guy.

Hugo’s fur was soft like a doe and he had long silky ears. When he rounded the corner of a room I thought he looked like a ghost. But he was wall-eyed and floppy, worrying signs. He slept too much for a puppy.

On his last night we walked at dusk, through the post-hurricane cinch weed bloom, Ted running a bit and Hugo loping like a deer, Toulie and I at the rear. His footsteps were still there days later, although he was gone.

I had to be strong and I failed. I drove almost two hours to an emergency vet, waited for hours for testing, and had to make the decision to put him down. Distemper, most probably. No amount of money or meds could save him. He had gone blind at some point that morning, and could no longer stand. I held him for an hour before they came in to end his very short, sweet life.

So why do these animals who flash in my life mean so much to me? With Batman, I was in an abusive and scary relationship in a foreign country, and thought the jealous boy might take my kitten, so I suffered until we got back to San Diego. In Turkey I was newly married but left behind by my husband, in a man’s world where I was totally misunderstood and lonely.

Here in the desert I am thriving and happy in my relationship, but my lovely dog of seven years is failing. I thought another dog might help me ease the pain of losing my constant companion. I’m also exhausted with very big projects, bigger artwork than I’ve ever done in my life, with budgets attached: Mojaveland, Mexican Biennial, PAAC, Service Scars movie. So this little puppy with big ears was an outlet for me to just love. Also, I miss my kids, who mostly don’t need me now. And I’m turning fucking 60 soon, so there’s that.

Oh, the pain. Are these brief lovely encounters worth it? You hear it from friends, they will never get another pet because losing the last one nearly killed them.

A week after Hugo was gone, we adopted another puppy, Beckman. He’s healthy and smart and I’m hoping will live a long life with us in the desert.

We saw it on the 10 day weather forecast, which we monitor daily. A big drop in temperature was coming. We were actually on vacation in Scotland during most of the month of August--our first overseas trip since before the Pandemic. Then came the circular wind charts on the Windy app. Mind-blowing. Everyone in SoCal prepared for the worst.

As we attended the Edinburgh Fringe Festival, reports started coming--San Diego and Los Angeles would be mostly spared, but the deserts were going to take it hard. Abe was staying at our house and we warned him to move everything that might blow away, and watch for leaks in our sunroom, which we know has problems. We worried about our tortoise, Pan, drowning. We missed a terrific pre-hurricane lightning storm. And then it just rained lightly for 24 hours and so we got off easy. But Down Below is a mess--Indian Canyon will be closed for months, trains washed away, Cathedral City flooded.

It's been a weird summer in general, but then again, no summer here has been predicable. June was shockingly mild, July sucked, then August storms. I'm beginning to wonder if global warming in SoCal will make us wetter. The coasts certainly have had so much rain (my house in San Diego has suffered water damage, and needs major repairs). What will happen in the Morongo Basin? We will see.

​At least the cacti are fat and happy.

Michele Guieu was one of our very first artist residents. She came before the Pandemic, and has returned every year since. Each time she creates a stunning temporary earth artwork on or nearby our property.

Not only has this work enriched all our lives, but her visits have profoundly affected her development as an eco artist. She writes about her work on the website The Millennium Alliance for Humanity and the Biosphere, sponsored by Stanford University. 

"The MAHB is a meeting place for global civil society — citizens concerned with the interconnections among the greatest threats to human well-being: this is the human predicament. The MAHB provides information about this global challenge, solicits new voices, offers opportunities for members to form working groups and discussion fora, and interact with a diverse community committed to ameliorating the threats to humanity."

Read Michele's article HERE. 

After the long summer, we are busy! 

Almost every evening, we sit on the edge of our wading pool and watch the sunset. Summer in 29 is brutal, but the end of the day is magical. To the south we see the Pinto Mountains of Joshua Tree National Park in layers the light plays off. To the north are the Bullion Mountains, lower, browner, and off limits because they belong to the Marine Base. Basically, it’s a bombing range.
 
Beyond the Bullions, several valleys further to the north and east, are the Mojave National Preserve and Death Valley. We had never been that way, but last month, before our road trip was cut short by illness, we plunged in. It was amazing.
 
Driving in the Mojave in summer is lonely—there are almost no cars on roads that float like thin gray rails above an ever-changing desert landscape of brush, rock and mountains. Every turn brings new vistas that shock: crags of black, red and white, conical volcanos, diagonal layers of frosting that look like earthquakes and colliding continents thrust them skyward just yesterday, vertical stripes, horizontal stripes, flat valleys, and, every now and then, a green oasis. In the National Preserve, one side of the road was skeletons of burned Joshua trees for miles, while on the other side a lush forest grew, with dense undergrowth. We were lucky in our timing—summer monsoons have now washed out many of the routes we just traveled.

How can it already be May?? Someone mentioned to Ted that they were disappointed I've not written lately. I sometimes forget that other people read these mini essays. 

What's on my mind? Mental health. Not mine, although there's always room for improvement. I'm very happy for the most part (and doing yoga again early mornings at the Inn). Still keen on the desert after four years. Still happy to get up each morning, and go outside and watch the mountains, cacti, vultures...

No. I'm worried about our guests. I had not thought that people who come to stay here, for short or long visits, may not have my desert-centric calm. They may work themselves to the point of exhaustion without realizing it. Or have a panic attack. Forget to drink water. Or react badly to some of our critters. I am not prepared for these strong emotions, how could I be? But I need to develop a plan when there's an issue. Or be proactive, post warnings.

There is a frenzy when people visit, that they should have wild experiences, do drugs at music festivals, party naked on the sands, buy houses and flip them, or get rich quick off of Airbnbs. That the art/music/creativity should flow effortlessly. None of it is true. Everything is risky. 

Last month three different acquaintances lost their leases. There's a brutal order here, and no way to absorb excess population. We are trying to help, and hopefully won't be sorry, later. 

Ugh, that's pretty bleak.

​We had a great opening of our new Palm Springs studio yesterday. Mland is still chugging along, although the City is on me, blah blah. And I got into the Mexicali Biennial, my first! That felt good! We will build a portable corn maze golf hole. Fore!

Reading my entry from March 2021 of this blog, about the one year anniversary of Covid isolation, it seems so much has happened in the past year.

By the way, if you didn't know, this is not my first rodeo... you can read my blog from Turkey, Kloe Among the Turks, the year I had a Fulbright (and to be honest, the year my marriage fell apart). And then the aftermath of that time, Kloe Survives the A World, when I raised my kids as a single mom and tried to make it as an artist. Not always pretty. (But here's one of my favorite posts, from France.)

The past years have been awful: Trump, Covid, and now war in Europe. It is most unfair to my kids--I don't remember this kind of trauma when I reached young adulthood. But on a personal level, I've never been happier: living the in the desert, running an artist residency, making art, and creating Mojaveland. Something about letting go of expectations, and not caring the slightest what people think of me. Having a super supportive partner helps. When I look back at my coded Kloe entries, I remember the tremendous pain of that time. 

News:
1. Opened a big show at Mesa College with my desert buddy, Ben Allanoff.
2. We just signed the lease for an art studio in Palms Springs. 
3. Got non-profit sponsorship for Mojaveland through the San Bernardino Arts Connection.

The Hwy 62 Art Tours are back after a two year Covid hiatus. We are participating with lots of work in the barn, and lots of it outside the barn, so people don't even have to go inside at all. Looking forward to showing people the property again!

Summer is finally finishing up and we are coming alive again. 

My sister project, Mojaveland Mini Golf and Art Experience, will open for a popup weekend Sept 25 and 26. Then Ted and I are showing our work in the Desert Dairy Barn for the Hwy 62 Art Tours, October 9/10, 16/17, and 25/26.

In between we will host artist residents at the Desert Dairy, starting with Oshri Hakak. Can't wait to see what this innovative artist creates out here!

Well, global warming is a bummer.

Extreme heat arrived with a bang, much earlier than normal. The first week of severe bad temps was in June, and we're just finishing up another bad week in July. By bad, I mean afternoon highs of 118, with nighttime temps not going below 90. Of course, it wasn't just the High Desert. Palms Springs hit 123 several times. It's worse "down below" because the Coachella Valley has so much vegetation, therefore humidity (how can there be so many lawns in the desert???) But Oregon, Washington and Canada, places that are not as prepared as we are, hit the teens in temperature. The only good thing is that the normal highs of 105 seem much less severe in comparison.

The Desert Dairy plants and trees are alive, mostly. New trees we've planted are doing well: two mesquite, a desert pine, a willow. Birds keep eating the new growth on the palo verde. The pepper tree died. We are nurturing a pomegranate and common fan palms in pots under the patio. Am also trying several native bushes to plant later to support wildlife. I have to hand water in the yard every three days, and every day on the patio. 

Otherwise, to beat the heat we joined the gym in 29, hang out in our two rooms with AC (swamp cooler is basically useless in severe heat), and soak in the pool at dusk. And we plan escapes to the coast to break up the long hot stretches. Dreaming of affording solar and an electric car. Sigh.

Just about every weekend this Spring we've had visitors come to see the Desert Dairy. Yesterday we hosted three groups, for tours, drinks and snacks. I guess I'd hoped this would happen, but I'm shocked it's taken so little time. Doesn't hurt that Joshua Tree is "hot" right now. 

We purchased this property about this time three years ago, so this is our fourth Spring in 29 Palms. 

Our first Spring was a blur – we didn't interact with our land because we were trying to clear it of tons of trash. Below is a photo a friend shot from inside our "cottage" from that time. Outside the window, you can see the devastation. 

Our second winter and spring brought flash floods in our Basin, and we had a stream going through our property. The biggest change was the wild (and invasive) mustard that covered almost all the desert.

Last year, our third spring, had light rains, and for a few weeks the ground was carpeted with green grasses, also invasive. These dried to a yellow that is slowly blowing away. For a few weeks the light yellow dandelions, orange mallow and desert lilies were gorgeous.

​This spring we've had one light sprinkle. It snowed in the mountains, but the moisture didn't reach us. There are no wildflowers at all, and the cactuses are blooming only where we have watered. Already, the creatures are starting to eat our plants, and I'm caging everything we want to save. What will be birds, rabbits, squirrels and rats eat? Our cars, our cacti, every stitch of green... 

Just like probably everyone in the world, we are thinking about our year of hibernation. Isn't it amazing that everyone is experiencing similar feelings? Has there been another period in my lifetime where that's happened... 911?  Moon landing?
I am very, very lucky. I haven't lost anyone close to me to the virus. We have lost income, lost time in our careers, and missed friends and family, but that's nothing compared to the suffering going on around us. Neither of us qualifies for the vaccine yet, so we are waiting, not that patiently.
Mostly I stay in the desert, but getting away, even for a few days to LA or SD, is important for my mental health. I'm still shocked that I, who always thought my goals were connected to the big city, am living in such a rural place. I don't find it lonely, but rather overwhelming. My eyes actually occasionally hurt looking at the distant mountains, rolling dunes and ever changing sky. It's visually exhausting.
But there are good things on the horizon. We are in a show at the Loft at Liz's--I have a whole room for my work! We are hosting residents again, which means every two or three weeks the atmosphere here changes. And I'm breaking ground on MLand, even though it's not a business, just an art project right now. But moving forward helps me stay positive (it was a tough winter, being told I had no access to the land). 
I'd like to buy a plane ticket somewhere for August, but between guilt at traveling and hurting the environment, and fear that the virus will again take a bad turn, we will probably stay here. My sister and I will meet in the middle of California for a weekend soon, I haven't seen her except briefly this whole year. My kids are coming out occasionally to stay, and I'm thankful they seem to be proud of our accomplishments and actually like it here. 
But I certainly hope I won't be writing the same thing in March 2022. I was right about the coming of the pandemic, and now hope I'm right that it's ending. 

Ted and I are finishing up a big fall project: a mini apartment in our former "cat room," where Ted's two cat's lived and he had a temporary office. We had never fixed up this part of the house, which was originally an eastern facing porch. Its biggest asset are sunrise views. The past two months have been a flurry of workers, masked and not (arggghh)--spending our small savings to create a separate space for friends, family, and residents to safely stay with us--near us, but separate from the main house. The idea is that we can interact with guests outside, where it's safe, but not share indoor space.

Arthur and Ted created a fantastic accent wall of found wood. Our contractors, true desert characters, were supportive of our crazy ideas, and even contributed some wood from their karate dojo. Nothing is square in this house, so the job was tough. Ted found a horse door at a second hand store, and it took several days to frame it in. Cheap door, expensive install, but worth it!

We hope the artists who stay with us will be inspired and comfortable. I remember every single room I stayed in at artist residencies, and it makes a difference to be in a place that is magical. You wake up each day in beauty, and get to work. Seriously, there's nothing better.

It's the day after Election Day and we are in waiting mode. The Pandemic still rages in most of the US, but here in rural California it is quiet. We wear masks when we go out, which is rarely.

But... we are moving forward! This weekend we have an artist retreat (all outdoors) for the Feminist Image Group from San Diego. Former resident Linda Litteral is creating a labyrinth in a field of our property, with the help of members of FIG. "The Walk" will contain multiple ceramic sculptures that are designed to help induce a meditative state. 

And, we are starting to host artists again! We have created a safe room for residents to stay separate from us, while enjoying our outdoor spaces and barn studios.  Susan Roden, from Albuquerque, will come in early 2021. Her work is gorgeous! 

Meet our new baby, Pancito. Or if he turns out to be female, Panchita. Or just Old Pan. He's a Sulcata (African, not endangered), may live to be 80 and grow to over 150 lbs. 

Fall has officially arrived, and the weather is getting better. August was survived, that's all I can say about that.

Pool got finished and it has been a savior. Matt made a beautiful work of land art, glowing light blue. We eat dinner out there, with our feet dangling in the cool water (and yes, it stays cool!). We lie on the edge at night and star gaze. If guests stop by for a drink, we either sit under the misters on the patio or lounge around the pool. Ted is obsessive about keeping it clean, and the filter/pump is a steep learning curve. But so worth it!

I finally had my solo show at the 29 Palms Art Gallery. Video here. I even sold a few pieces! I've also become the Coordinator of Youth Education there, convincing the board to buy zoom and hold all classes online. This is an all volunteer non-profit that has survived since 1952, so tradition looms large and I can't push too hard. 

We are hoping to again host residents at the Desert Dairy, but first need to solve some logistical problems about how to keep separate and safe. Stay tuned on that. The Moonhuts is slowly getting back to business, although only about 50% at this point.

​We wait for November with bated breath and grinding teeth. 

An essay I wrote for The Millennium Alliance for Humanity and the Biosphere at Stanford: 


​Report from Twentynine Palms, Morongo Basin, Mojave Desert
 
Well, it was 120 degrees here the other day, still the first half of July.
 
Although we bought our wreck of a property two years ago, we only moved here full time as it became apparent the pandemic would make city living unbearable. It was the right decision. When my partner and I go back to Los Angeles or San Diego to get supplies, or check on family, the loss is palpable. Here in the desert we go for days without putting on a mask or seeing anyone. But it’s 120 degrees out, and leaving the swamp-cooled house is not a great idea.
 
We’ve become avid comet-watchers. The first time, we got up at 4am. Waiting in the darkness, our eyes adjusting, the warm night was silent. And then I saw a star with a streak, very faint, a reminder of how insignificant we are.
 
In the heat of midday, a baby hawk sits in the bird bath. Quail and roadrunners chirp and beep. A bobcat occasionally sleeps in our oasis. Nature continues, mostly.
 
We artists are trying to find a way forward. Continuing to paint/photograph/sculpt/perform as we did before Covid seems… stupid? futile? decadent? Those of us who are privileged should perhaps stay silent, and let other voices speak. Listening to these stories deserves almost all our attention. Or, maybe we continue to make work and hide it away for another time. Our calendars are filled with crossed out shows, non-existent deadlines, and canceled travel. There’s nothing but time, how should we use it?
 
For many years I assuaged my guilty painting-and-object-making lifestyle by teaching. My community college students needed me; I cared about them and their aspirations. I believe art saves lives, that I was helping. But as the years passed teaching became burdensome, and I felt I wasn’t doing enough. Perhaps getting older I could no longer relate to my young adult students. I gradually let the college jobs go, one by one. The nail in my teaching coffin was having to finish the spring semester remotely. I zoomed with students who couldn’t leave their houses because they were caring for a mentally disable sibling, a brother who had been shot, a granddaughter who was in an unsafe group home. It was traumatizing to us all. Teaching now belongs to a younger generation of academics, and I wish them strength.
 
Back to the question of what artists should be doing… perhaps continuing to make work during the pandemic, the racial unrest, and the disintegration of our democracy is simply an act of mental self-preservation. Does responding creatively to present circumstances, even if no one will ever see the work, give us reasons to get up each morning? For me, yes.
 
I’m now designing a big project in the desert--an arts center disguised as an entertainment park, to reach multigenerational families. I considering it a large-scale, long-term performance, and it feels more right that continuing to make objects (although I still do that, when the studio is not a body-melting temperature). As an artist, will businesses take me seriously? I do not know, and I really don’t care. It’s possible I’ll crash and burn, spending every cent I have in the process. I also don’t care.
 
The desert is fierce and merciless. The land has been mistreated--I will do my best to repair it, in the small ways available to a woman past her prime. The people here have been ignored, the rural children have little to look forward to. I want to help. Perhaps that’s what will be remembered about this horrible season. That art can still save lives, even if it’s just my own that is salvaged.
 
 

I can't believe it's been over two months since I last wrote. My life used to be lived at 70 miles per hour, between San Diego and Los Angeles. Last spring it slowed to 50, then 40 miles per hour, as I finished my final semester online, and we adjusted to the Covid lifestyle. My solo show in June at the 29 Palms Art Gallery was postponed, of course, and I lost my painting mojo. I continued work on my big conceptual project, MLand, and finished lots of little projects around the house and garden. I was actually thrown out of two online exhibitions because I didn't follow the "rules." WTF. 

August came, the dreaded month, and the gears of my life ground down to 20 miles per hour. We rushed to get AC installed--mini splits in the living room and bed room--all we could afford. The AC guy loved our property, and remembered riding horses on our dunes as a kid. The AC units are probably the nicest part of our house, so professionally installed. And in the nick of time. The weather turned humid, and hit 119 a few days in a row (Death Valley, relatively close by, hit 130, hottest in recent history). The nights don't go down below the mid 80s. We watched the Comet Neowise, and the Perseid Meteor Shower. A big fire in Banning threatened to jump up to the Morongo Valley, but was stopped. Sky is still smokey, but that may be from the other fires that are consuming the state. This year has just been so terribly hard. 

Now we live in the living room, all the doors and window shades closed so the AC forms a cool box. In winter we do the same thing to get warm. I've never lived in a place that has affected where I can be in my house. Expand in spring and fall, and constrict in winter and summer. No exercising outside, no venturing outside except right at dawn to water. The doves have started to eat the plants, even though we put water and food out every day. 

We had bobcats in the oasis again, a mother and two kittens. We saw them live only a few times, but caught them on our motion sensor camera at the water bowl. I've always thought the oasis a bit spooky, and now we see how many animals move through there night and day: coyotes, hawks, rabbits, rats, owls, cats. 

I'll try to write about MLand soon, but I'm discouraged right now. We just need to survive the heat, the fires, the political situation, the coming homeless crisis, and the diminution of our lives.  

A red racer/coachwhip under the oven tarp, Gambel's quail under olive, more bees removed by friends in the barn, and barn owl in the oasis. 

I haven't been writing much. Weebly has been scrambling my photos when I upload from my phone, which has discouraged me. But in reality, we are living here now, so the DD has become something less, at least for the time being. It's our 10th week in lockdown. Although we've ventured back to LA and SD for short trips, this is home, at least for now. We are grateful to be in the country, where we don't have to interact with people who are not being safe.
Emotions have run the gamut, like for everyone, I'm sure. Mental health is so important, trying to trick yourself into feeling excited about the future, and not scared, or frustrated with the economics and politics of the US. We are strategizing on how to restart the Moonhuts, which may include getting a portapotty and outside washup area. Then there's the residency, which will be harder. We are looking into a separate entrance and living area for residents. The outdoor work areas aren't the problem, it's the indoor part that doesn't add up. Sigh.
I whipped the office into better shape, and it's turning into one of my favorite rooms in the house. When we got the property, the owner was using it as storage, because it doesn't have a window to the outside. But slowly it's become very comfortable to hang out in, do zoom meetings in, watch videos. Now I've got my desk set up to keep all our businesses organized properly. Feels good. See? I'm tricking myself into happiness. 

I always wanted a pink house. There was a perfect house I  passed everyday on the freeway in San Diego: light pink, with white and gray trim. My grandmother loved the color, and I inherited many of her pink cashmere sweaters. And now that I think of it, her house was pink. 
Anyway, my other houses were gray-blue, yellow, gray (now green), and gray again (at least I haven't had to live in many tan houses). When we got this house I didn't like the pink, it seemed the wrong shade somehow. But with my new green base, and brown trim (which I'm going to freshen up as soon as the birds finish nesting under the eaves), I think I've achieved my own pink perfection.
These are our bloomers against the house, very happy!